On love and abuse

I’m going to keep this short and sweet, because otherwise it’ll be long and really fucking pissed off.

When I was a kid, because of the abuse I survived at the hands of my mother, I grew up thinking that abuse was love.

And then I went through 12+ years of therapy.

Guess what? I don’t think abuse is love anymore. Because equating those two things is the sign of someone who has dangerously fucked up ideas, ideals, and boundaries.

And that’s just not a place that mentally or emotionally healthy people go.

I’m not talking about BDSM. I’m talking about rape, physical abuse, emotional abuse, and mental abuse. Situations where one person is being caused lasting physical, mental, or emotional damage.

I can’t really — and won’t — speak about the other social stuff coming up around the sides of this, because honestly, I think it’s a distraction. It’s easier to be upset about he-said-she-said than it is to be upset about “holy fuckballs, our fandom has some people in it who have seriously fucked up ideas.”

There you have it, kidlets. Short, sweet, and to the fucking point. Done. Moving on.

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Site updates and niftybits

First off, Mavrosal, awesome fic writer and banner-maker extraordinaire, made a pretty swank header image for The King’s Telepath. (I know I’ve been slacking on posting that, but I’m going to at least partially blame the DayQuil-induced haze I was in for a good portion of last week. Or was it the week before? See? I don’t even know anymore.)

I used this really freaking awesome program when I was writing that story, and honestly, Scrivener is the best writing program I’ve ever seen. Forget Word. Forget Pages. Scrivener is seriously where it’s at. I can’t even begin to tell you how insane this thing is. I can’t recall how much I paid for it, but it’s worth every dime. One of the many things I love about it: creating portable versions (in epub or mobi format) of my stories is a breeze. Takes maybe a minute or two.

Which is why there’s a new page called Sophie Mobile. So far I’ve gotten all of my finished stories (Don’t Find Me, The Queens Telepath, and The King’s Telepath) up there. I’ve decided to add all of my one-shots to the site, and there will eventually be mobile versions of those as well.

I have no idea what to do yet with the unfinished stories I’ve got. I keep saying I’ll work on them, finish them, scrap them and rewrite from scratch, etc. Honestly, I can’t decide. I think finishing the sequel to TKT might be my priority, because writing this series is supposed to be my practice for writing an original series that I’ve been worldbuilding.

So those are the two main bits of news. I’ve been feeling a desperate urge to write as of late, and it’s only a matter of time until that comes out somehow.

One of the things I’ve been tossing around is the idea of having a “fluff story” that I work on, on the side. It’d be unbetaed, un-polished. Just tossing words onto the screen in an arrangement that I’d hope was pleasing in some form. As much as I honestly do love this latest series, there’s so much work that goes into it. I need some kinda fluff. So far, that’s looking a lot like either Smarter Sookie or NOLA.

No promises, mind you. But that’s where I’m leaning.

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Hi, nice to meet you: I’m Lindsay

Let’s be honest: it’s not that hard to figure out that Sophie Myst is a pen name.

I came up with it before I started writing fanfic. Sophie is the name of one of my ancestors, and Myst is my favorite video game. (Goofy, yeah, I know. None of you should be surprised by me being goofy.)

Originally, this blog was going to be a place to write original short stories that were kind of barely-fictionalized retellings of some of the really bizarre stuff that’s happened to me over the years. No one ever really read it, but yanno, no biggie. It was a writing exercise, kind of a precursor to my fanfic writing exercises.

When I started reading and then writing fanfic, it was largely in an effort to not have to face the ways in which my life in Atlanta was falling apart. It was an escape. I was married to a literary elitist; it took me months to admit to him that I was reading fanfic. Which, honestly? says a lot about the state of things.

Now I’m single, back in the city of my birth. I’ve a new life, and it can be (within limits, given that there are public decency laws) whatever I want it to be. Some lines have already been blurred, here and there. Some “real-life” friends know I write fanfic. Some fanfic friends know my real name, and I’ve even gotten to hang out with some of them. (Which, by the way, was insanely awesome and needs to happen more often.)

Sure, some folks might think I’m weird for writing fanfic, but yanno, given the rest of the stuff about me that’s pretty damn out there, I think fanfic is the least of my worries. Heh.

So yeah. Hi. I’m Lindsay. I’m not going to be changing my pen name. I’ll still write under the name Sophie Myst. You can call me Lindsay or Sophie and so long as you don’t call me a flying fuckrag, we’ll be good. I’ll let some of my Lindsay-friends over into Sophie-land and similarly, let some Sophie-friends over into Lindsay-land. I am still kind of a private person about some things, and for all of my raunchiness, I really am pretty socially awkward and kind of shy with people I don’t know.

I don’t expect this to be a big fuss either way. I’m not announcing this with the idea that there’ll be any fanfare. You are not required to care either way. It’s more that I’m just not that invested in keeping up unnecessary walls. There’s way too many of those in my life already. So there you have it. And there you are. And stuff. Things. :D

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Update: The King’s Telepath, chapter 10: Comfortable

The King’s Telepath, chapter 10: Comfortable

Yes, that really is the last chapter. Yes, there IS another story in the works, and it picks up right where this one left off. Well, maybe an hour or two later. But I have already started working on it. With any luck, it won’t take me half as long to write as this one did.

Many thanks go out to my awesome beta EtheHunter and my pre-reader Sarahblueiris. This story would probably have been possible without their help, but it wouldn’t have been nearly half as awesome. They both rock like whoa, and I’m a total heel for not having mentioned them until just now. Gah.

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Update: The King’s Telepath, chapter 9: Questions answered

The King’s Telepath, chapter 9: Questions answered

Posting early today cuz I stayed home sick. S’not a huge deal (ha ha, see what i did there?), but I’m gonna post this and then go back into my NyQuil-induced coma.

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Update: The King’s Telepath, chapter 8: Necessary conversations

Update: The King’s Telepath, chapter 8: Necessary conversations

I know some of you may be getting a bit twitchy as the story is nearing the big 1-0. Just remember: there’s another story yet to be told. It’ll all be okay. I promise. :)

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Update: The King’s Telepath, chapter 7: Coming clean

The King’s Telepath, chapter 7: Coming clean

Today looks to be another slightly crazy/busy day for me, and it’s the weekend, so you get another chapter early again. Hope you enjoy!

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